The Law of Equivalent Exchange
But us, we found peace in the shadows, long enough to see the monster die...
I don’t know how binding it’ll be, but like people before me (most of which I’ve seen come back) I’m leaving tumblr. It started as a good idea and I still, to a degree, like reading what all of you are doing. I feel, however, that my part in your lives is pretty much finished. For those in Raleigh when I get to State, I’ll probably look you up. For all the rest, I’m sorry that we won’t see much of one another anymore. In some cases it won’t matter that much because you may just have been a friend of a friend or some other transient connection. It may sound pessimistic but I don’t think I’ll be missed much, there’s not much original content that comes from me. On here more than anywhere I just feel like a number. I won’t lie, this does make me sad, but the whole thing seems like an exercise in futility and a charade for no one. People who talk to me outside of this forum might assume certain reasons for my departure. You may be right about some, but I doubt you are right about all of them. If anyone wants to keep in touch:
Cell: threethreesix-sixsevenone-twoseventwofour Skype: Jon.Armke Facebook: see Skype entry minus the dot
I started this blog for a girl, and I fought the urge to end it over one. This is me leaving on my terms, and to quote a friend I miss dearly “it’s not wrong. I am not wrong”
J
My German is seriously rusty…
ZOMG! Was ist los, Fraulein Tesh? Ich habe nicht von ihnen zu horen ewig und einen tag!
I apologize for improper verb tenses and missing umlauts and such in advance.
-J
BAHAHAH
DINKLEBERG!
Isn’t this from The Fairly Odd Parents? I’m not even joking when I tell you this and Batman are probably the only shows that I would DVR if given the chance.
I would also have accepted Crocker losing his mind with the caption “TUMBLR ERROR? (<BR>) FAIRY! GOD! PARENTS!”
that is all
omfg. cannot be unseen. totally needs to be in the film epilogue of deathly hallows, fuck digitally aging them or using makeup. This is win as fuck.
(Source: omgharrypotter)
Just finished the final coding on my first major CIS 115 project; it’s in Visual Basic, so it’s nothing spectacular by way of complicated syntax, but the abstraction you get away with is fairly solid. I managed to set up a single module that is triggered by double clicking a small Phi (the Greek letter that’s a whole “H” of a lot cooler than Pi, thank you Robert Langdon) character in the corner (barely lighter than the background, mind you, it’s a secret). this module then completely changes the main color of the form and the buttons, alters 90% of the text, and all the on-form images. Oh, yeah, it’s all Simpsons stuff too. If I get some sizable likes, I may post screencaps.
-J
Ps: I am that much of a dork, my cat is named Pythagoras, for heaven’s sake.
There are moments where the veneer cracks and I just want to scream. I just don’t understand it. All I want to be happy and not constantly looking over my shoulder at whatever else is going on. I don’t want to care about other things, I just want to care about my life, but I can’t turn off this need to know. This compulsive, disgusting need to know EVERYTHING. All it seems to do is frustrate and annoy me, and I feel like I’m ready to just walk away from all of it. Leave tumblr, facebook, and anything that is social network related, and just go live in a cabin somewhere. I understand that it’s not as dramatic as all that for other people, but I’m a near-Asperger’s level introvert who has done his damnedest to come out of that shell, and everything seems to be going wrong at once and all I want to do is hide again. I hate it, I hate this, and sometimes, yes, I hate myself. I hate the weakness that I feel, and that my faith which gets me through all else can’t seem to shore up the gaps between my heart and the rest of the world. I just want a do-over, or something. I’m trying to be happy, by God and everyone else, I really am. It’s just not working, and I feel like I’m losing my grip. I’m an adult and I’ve tried adult solutions for this and nothing seems to help. I feel like I’m wasting my life, and what improvements I have made aren’t adding up to much. What the hell am I supposed to do now?
There I am, walking through Greenwich Village this evening with Troy, who I worked with this summer at GSE, and these two guys walk past us. One of them looks at me and says something I don’t understand. I respond “what?” and he and his friend both say “BANG!” and laugh.
I knew it…
Sorry that I wasn’t very clear. After they yelled “BANG!” and laughed, they kept walking the opposite direction. So, nothing happened other than their joke
I would hope that with all the work that you and others have done that the last thing anyone should hear is the love and comfort of their loved ones. Not the deafening silence of a lonely room where they’ve been left with such hopelessness that they feel they should end the torture of trying to hide who they are, nor the beep of a heart monitor going flatline because they didn’t hide it. If my child (or children) isn’t heterosexual, I hope to God that I can keep them safe and happy long enough to where they are able to fight such bigotry and hate. Real funny joke you two random jackasses, I wonder if you came up with it after church where you should’ve learned that love and understanding is always superior to hate and ignorance. I wonder if you realize that the stereotypical appreciation for the arts and intellectualism attributed to gay men is better than the stereotypes of lighting farts and drinking crappy beer attributed to certain straight ones. Ugh. This crap makes me irate.
